Category Archives: Inspiration

Permission to run

I saw the orthopedist who operated my knee for the second time after the surgery yesterday. It has heeled remarkably well and has full mobility. This is quite amazing since it will be only 3 months from the surgery tomorrow. So the recovery process has gone as expected, only a little bit better. My orthopedist, Hannu Miettinen, said that I can pretty much start to exercise anything I want besides the contact sports where there’s a bigger risk of twisting the knee, slipping or ‘landing’ badly so these would be football, tennis, squash etc. But I’m allowed to start running again! This is wonderful news, I was so happy. Of course I have to start very gradually and slowly and listen how the knee reacts but if the surface is flat and even, I can run. You cannot imagine how that feels. So as soon as I got home from the doctor, I put on my running gears and went for an easy, short, slow 32 minutes run. There were definitely very strange sensations on the knee, more so below the knee, not exactly pain but kind of ache. It’s hard to explain. But I did run for 32 minutes. And I was soooo happy and relieved and it was a beautiful evening.
So now I need to start building more strength and co-ordination and learn to trust the knee again. Although it’s much better day by day, this part is difficult. I realize that I’m still a bit cautious and have questions like why did it happen, what did I do wrong, will it happen again? But Hannu said that I shouldn’t worry or start to fear as these things happen and sometimes it’s only a small twist into the wrong direction or bad landing from a jump that can cause the ACL to torn. And it’s slightly more common for women to tear the ACL… Anyway, for another month I need to be very careful as the ligamentation process is not completed and it actually goes on for at least a year or so. Hannu also said that I shouldn’t for example sit on my knees for about 6 months as it stretches the reconstructed ACL too much.

Anyway, it’s all gone well and I think I’ll be ready for my performances in June.

Johanna

busy days at the ANTI office

Last weeks have been so busy and I’ve felt pretty exhausted. I’ve been every morning by 8am in the ANTI office working with Kaisa on the programme details but of course there’s always something extra going on as well. I finished the educational live art projects around the Acts of Clothing and I participated with Kaisa in the ömeising reis event last Tuesday where I led a live art session for 150 students. I’ve also been trying to keep up my exercise routine but it’s been a challenge since I’ve been so busy. But I’ve done pretty well… walking, training on the cross trainer and an exercise bike…
Today I visited the Iittala outlet store in Hirvaskangas and was so inspired by the designs, the colours, the products! A few weeks ago I got obsessed with the idea of frozen margarita and after a sunny day I just had to go and buy these Essence bowl glasses and make my first frozen margaritas ever.
Essence bowl
By the way, the glasses were cheaper in the local Citymarket than in the Iittala outlet store. Strange. Anyway, I didn’t buy anything today but I fell in love with the pink Essence pitcher. But since I already have the turquoise one  I couldn’t buy it.
By the way, I noticed today that the Sagaform’s herb pot is on sale in Euromarket. I think I might go and get a few tomorrow.

Johanna

back from NRLA and going ever since

Last week I got back from NRLA which again was a fantastic celebration of live art. I saw so many great artists and works, colleagues and friends that I’m overwhelmed just thinking about it… This year was the 30th anniversary of NRLA and maybe because of that the sense of community, support and live art family was heightened. What ever the case, it was truly magical and beautiful to be part of it all. I saw just amazing works by Kira O’Reilly, Guillermo Gomez Pena, Marcia Farquhar, Ron Athey, FrenchMottershead and Los Torreznos, and many works that were not mind blowing but important to see such as Forced Entertainment, Sheela Gelani, Kate Stannard, Francesca Steele, Silke Mansholt… to name a few. I also followed a La Pocha Nostra workshop lead by Guillermo Gomez Pena and Roberto Sifuentes at the Univerisity of Glasgow. That was just great. It was also fantastic to see Jennie Klein, Dee Heddon, Lois Keidan, Colin & Debbie, Richard DeDomenici, Ange Taggart, Manuel Vason and the ASFLA partners of course. Like always, it was all really inspiring. Check out the photograph of the NRLA crowd by FrenchMottershead here.

The only thing causing a little bit of a headache was the BA strike which cancelled my flight from Glasgow to London. In the end, I managed to change my flight and fly to London on Monday night, but had to stay overnight at Heathrow and fly to Finland the next day. This was truly exhausting. And with my knee still in recovery, I was pretty fed up dragging my luggage around Heathrow airport in the middle of the night…only to sleep a couple of hours at the airport hotel and get the shuttle bus back to the airport in the early morning hours. Anyway, I managed.

As soon as I landed in Helsinki, Risto Löf from Savon Sanomat newspaper called me and wanted to do an interview because of the prize I received from the regional arts council of North Savo. I didn’t have much time to talk then so when I finally got home I called him back and we did the interview on the phone. I think I was about 1 and half hours at home before rushing to the VB photographic centre to receive my prize. It was a small & cozy little event but at least I got to wear my golden Finsk shoes… This was the second time as I also wore them at the Tramway in Glasgow. They are so comfortable! I must say I find a bit strange the way the regional arts council organizes the prize reception. For one thing, I still haven’t actually ‘received the prize’ but the way they inform about it (or rather the lack of informing about it), invite people to the event (or rather don’t invite people) and celebrated with me was rather dull. Well, luckily Pekka, Anniina & Tatu came by later and we had some champagne.

Last week, weekend and this week have been very busy at the ANTI Festival office. I’ve spent a lot of time on the proposals, skyping with Gregg, thinking about the programme, organizing the annual association meeting etc. Luckily Kaisa started her work last week as the producer of 2010 festival. I think we’ll make a great team. There’s so much work at the moment that I’m all the time tempted to jump to work but I need to take these Easter days easy as I’ve worked the last two weekends. Yesterday I forced myself to finish my tax papers from 2009. It took me 7 hours. I’ve always hated doing the tax papers but especially now that the regional tax office of North Savo has refused to accept physical training costs as part of a freelance dance artist’s professional costs I’ve kind of lost faith in the Finnish tax system & authorities. 

Although things at the ANTI office have been exciting and interesting, I’ve been a bit concerned because I haven’t had time & energy to exercise much. It’s ok for a week or two but cannot become routine. So I’ve been catching up with exercising and it’s all gone pretty well. Last week I also returned the crutches that I had borrowed from the health care centre of Kuopio. The day before yesterday I walked 8.3km and today 8km. These are the first ‘longer’ walks I’ve done after the surgery (I know they are not that long but keeping in mind that I had a ACL surgery 7 weeks ago it’s not that bad). Probably many people don’t recognize anything strange in my walking but I know it’s far from ‘normal’. I cannot fully straighten the knee or push from the left foot they way I can from the other one and especially after a while, this shows in slight limping. The first hour of walking went on both days pretty well but after that the knee starts to feel a bit unstable and wobbly. Yesterday I went to the gym to do some strengthening exercises and also cycled on an exercise bike for 25mins and 15mins on the cross trainer. So I think the knee is definitely getting better, I just have to be patient with it. It’s great to be able to walk outside now that the ice has melted from the streets and there’s no danger of slipping and falling. But for now I can only dream of running. I was so envious of people who went by me running or jogging. I just wanted to shout ‘I also would be running hadn’t I had a knee surgery 7 weeks ago!’ Anyway, I think it’s soon time to find my bicycle from the storage and repair it for another spring-summer-autumn season of cycling.

Tomorrow I need to prepare for next week’s works as I’m involved in many things. But it’s great to be back at work, much nicer than being stuck at home with an injury.

Johanna

scars & shoes

This week I’ve had a bit too much to do and too many responsibilities for someone who is still recovering from a surgery. So the knee has been very painful for a few days and more swollen than is was last week. It’s nothing too serious, I think, but it just reminds me that I should be taking it very easy at this point and it’s for a reason that I’m officially on sick leave. I’m quite fed up with the crutches and to try to take care of any matter with them is starting to get on my nerves. But it’s hopefully only another week with them and then I’ll see how I manage without… The metal ‘stitches’ were taken out on Wednesday and this is how my beautiful leg looks like now.

polvi2

Today I was a bit adventurous and went to visit the Vero Moda store to see if they had the new ‘Very’ collection in Kuopio. Well, they had a few items but of course not the ones I was interested in. I got really fed up with Kuopio because it’s practically impossible to find the kind of shoes & clothes that I like here. Well, not completely impossible, but pretty much. I have no idea when I can wear high heel shoes again but luckily, the Finsk shoes I had ordered online arrived today. They are truly amazing, beautiful and feel very good on the foot. But, the right shoe feels a bit big and I’m a bit concerned about that. I have to try these beauties on again tomorrow and make up my mind whether I can wear them or do I have to return them – which I don’t want to do! What do you think? Should I keep or return them???

Thanks to these big shoe brands now even people who suffer from underpronation can get perfect fitting shoes instead of adjusting in the same old regular shoes.

Finsk 1

Finsk 2

Finsk 3

After the long grey socks I’ve gotten back to knitting. My daughter insisted that I knit these ‘leg warmers’ (have no idea how they are called in English) for her. She absolutely loves them and wears them day and night.
säärystin1

säärystin2

säärystin3

I’ve never knitted anything like this before but I had to try this when I saw the instruction in one magazine. They are very comfy!

kämmekäs1

kämmekäs2

I’m making sushi now and wishing you all a lovely weekend!

Johanna

 

 

So, the date of my knee operation is confirmed. In less than a week it’s going to operated and I’ll finally know what kind of damage exactly happened in the third Acts of Clothing performance in November. I feel relieved but also a bit frightened. Depending what needs to be done in order to fix the knee, also determines the length of the recovering process.
The other really terrifying thing is that I have so much work to do and I don’t understand how will I be able to meet all the deadlines and complete all the mandatory work related things in just a few days before going into the surgery. Arghhh…

On Thursday I spoke in a seminar focusing on cultural management and producing cultural events In Jyväskylä. It was really inspiring and exciting and we had a very good conversation in the end. There were many students who study arts management and they were so sweet with their questions. Yesterday I also met Kaisa who will start working with me on ANTI Festival in April. I’m so much looking forward to that! I think we’ll make a good team.

Last week in Helsinki was also very very inspiring. It was simply great to be on the course focusing on international touring and look at the different requirements and aspects of it. I was also inspired by the many conversations among colleagues and it was great to sense the feeling of common concerns, aims and visions. The days were very full, besides the course I had arranged meetings with several collaborators and managed to see some work as well.
Iiris Autio, the managing director of Tero Saarinen company and Suzanne Bilodeau from Cinars:

Cinars

Whilst in Helsinki, I also quickly popped in Asuna and in Minna Parikka’s boutique with Maija. And I didn’t buy anything! The shoes I fancied didn’t fit my foot at all and in Asuna the trousers I fell in love with were soooooo expensive that I managed to stay sane and keep my credit card in the wallet. Yesterday I visited the lovely Minzi store in Jyväskylä and didn’t buy anything either. They had some great shoes (but not the right size) and inspiring 2OR+YYAT clothes but they were not really my style. I wish they’ve had the new collection of Finsk shoes but they hadn’t arrived as yet… And that was probably very good as I won’t be able to wear super high heels for a while after the knee operation.

Johanna

back to Acts of…

Today I start a new educational live art course around the Acts of Clothing performance and process. Exciting!
Here’s Marcia in her famous flamenco tartan and me in my Marimekko in the hotel Atlas in Kuopio.

acst of…
Photography: Pekka Mäkinen.

Wishing you all a good day!

Johanna

unexpected shopping

Today I went to town to buy some food and wine with my son. We decided to have some coffee and hot chocolate in café Burts which is located in one of the shopping malls in the centre. I seriously didn’t plan to visit the best underwear store of the city but then thought I should pass by and then I thought I could have a look at the Marlies Dekkers undies. But when I saw that they had some Marlies Dekkers items on sale, I thought I have to try them on. So I came home with this gorgeous bra and underpants…
marlies dekkers

I finally hang some hooks in my dressing room and they are perfect for my Minna Parikka Maxine and Lumi Accessories handbags.
Maxine

Lumi

hooks

It’s been freezing cold today but very sunny and beautiful. I’m enjoying my almost free weekend and today we cooked lovely Japanese noodles, veggies and salmon in a wok. Delicious.

J

I’ve tried to keep up my regular exercising regime but it’s really not working very well. In each training session, there are movements which the knee cannot support and it kind of collapses – and this is very painful. This also happened today in the worst possible way (and I wasn’t even training) and I fell very badly. The knee hurt so badly that I cried like a baby, lay on the floor and wept with ice on the knee. Not good. I’m so sick of not having heard again from the insurance company and this whole case is just dragging further and further.

I will call the insurance company tomorrow. I actually tried to call them today (before I had fallen) but didn’t reach the right person. If I’ve ever had any trust to any insurance company, I really don’t anymore.

My home ‘gym’…

gym

Otherwise I’ve been busy working on ANTI Festival. The call out for ANTI Festival 2010 is now open so check it out if you are interested in applying.

Another interesting position is open in the Regional Dance Centre of Eastern Finland. More information in Finnish available here. 

Johanna

socks etc.

Ok, I’ve now finished knitting the socks. Thanks again Aila for the inspiration! They feel nicely warm and I think I will wear them a lot with skirts and dresses.

socks

socks2

As I went to buy the silk ribbon for the socks, I quickly had a look at the sales in a couple of shops. I fell in love with this woolen Benetton top which looks great with my grey Noolan skirt and the new socks I’ve knitted.

top

I’m getting back to the ANTI Festival work on Monday and we are moving our office next week to the Mylly, a site where a lot of artists and cultural organisations have moved since December. So we painted the office to make it look & feel like a place where it’s great to spend time every day…

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office2

Today I did a really intense workout in the gym & pool and wanted to reward myself with something. I went to Alko (Finnish alcohol monopoly) and I bought a bottle of this sparkling Australian wine I haven’t tasted as yet. But it does look gorgeous!

pink

So yes, the holidays is almost over and I’m looking forward to getting back to work. There are a few things I haven’t gotten myself to do and I feel annoyed with myself but there are surprisingly many things that I’ve accomplished. So I feel confident that I will have the energy to do what I need to do….

Johanna

knee issues & knitting

I finally got to see my orthopedist a couple of days ago. Unfortunately, the magnetic scan didn’t show properly the ACL ligament which the orthopedist thinks is torn. And although my knee is obviously much better at the moment, he still thinks that the ligament is torn and can only be fixed in an operation. So for a month I should train and exercise according to my normal routines and we’ll see if I’m able to that and if the knee functions as it should. So yesterday I went for a 50 minute run and stretched afterwards. It was kind of ok but the knee is very painful when it’s straightened and also in some turning movements. Now I can really feel the bit of exercising in the knee. It’s really painful.

Other than worrying about my knee, inspired my friend Aila, I’ve been knitting socks. It’s not a very unusual thing to do, I know, but I haven’t been knitting anything for maybe at least 15 years. Those of you who saw my Acts of Clothing performance know that I used to knit a lot as a teenager but I’m completely out of practice and actually hadn’t even thought about knitting until I saw a pair of gorgeous socks Aila had knitted. I’ve now finished one sock during the last hours of 2009. Now I’m knitting the second one and hope that I’ll find time and inspiration to finish it soon. I’m sure I’ll love to wear these! This is unfinished but you can see the pattern:
sock

I still think that the only proper Christmas tree is lit with real candles:

tree

And another Christmas tradition is to make a puzzle. I guess it’s the only time of the year when there’s enough time and peace to concentrate on something like that. This year we had this beautiful 1 000 piece Moomin puzzle:

puzzle

I had a peaceful New Year’s eve knitting, sitting by the fire, having a sauna, drinking some nice wine and firing a few fireworks with family. I wish a splendid and inspiring 2010 for everyone.

Johanna